Insult.. Humiliation... Isolation... Embarrassment

My huge apology goes to my significant other and all of his friends. Im so tired as much as you do with my endless apology but im only human just like the many other people out there. Honestly i do not know what im doing to my life dear. I'm a failure in every aspect of my life currently.

Im so far from all my love ones. Be it physically or mentally. What is there more to life if i had to beg for love around me. Yes i need attention cause i've got nothing more left to cherish. Im doing everything im my own capabilities to find love. So much so that i care no less about my own interest and needs.

I think for now i have lost so much love in me that my actions more often than not is a portrayal of an irrational behaviour. I could not bring myself together to be compose cause i do want to lose any one in my life. My heart is getting more and more empty that i am desperate to fill it with the sincerest of love that i can get. Please forgive me dear......