God please give me strength...

Man it has been ages since i last wrote an entry. Anyhow it has been a pretty roller coaster ride for me. School matters im doing pretty fine. Life erm .... well im doing fine too but not too fine. There is just something incomplete about my life. To live is a priviliege but to live the life given oh man can be very complex and hard. Well who says that life is easy anyway.

I think im falling sick maybe due to the lack of rest or maybe i have been been doing a lot of thinking lately. Firsty it started out with just flu then now im having flu as well as a fever and on top of that i think my migraine is coming back. The last time i had it it was terrible. It was early this year. I vomit everything that i consume even water and i can't stand, sit or even lie down. My step mother helped me a lot when i had my migraine.

On a brighter note my relationship with my step mother is getting better and better. Im not too sure if that is good or bad but i do not really care at the moment. I still love my mother and i got to be very careful in handling my mother's emotion for she can get hugely sensitive this days.

Speaking of love, i realised that love hurts. Maybe when you truly purely love someone you will get hurt eventually. Even when you are separated for good cause it still lingers around your mind. For now i will not let it linger around my mind anymore but to grab it and get it back whatever it takes as i have realised i did the greatest mistake of my life of accepting the separation. I want to get it back because i truly do love my ex-significant other.

I do believe that each and every human being deserve a chance......